#✧��ﾟ･ﾟ✧ | ☾ | : jude speaks.

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Like this post for a Full Moon encounter/starter later. ☆ I promise this does not guarantee a horny bird. Horny bird is by request / if we are already established shipping partners.

[botanikos]

THANK YOU, FOR ILLUMINATING MY WORLD — ☆

I will not be tagging people in my silly little post and to be quite honest, there would be far too many to tag. I would, however, like to make one. It is New Years Eve, after all, so I may as well before I regret not doing so!

My time here has not been boring, that is for sure. It also has not been the best, or easiest. . . . but it has been the most memorable. I never expected to find community here, to make so many new friends, or feel as comfortable as I do now. I only ever knew true confidence or comfort years ago when I wrote in the Hellsing fandom. My, how times have changed and I have grown since then. . .

Here I am, writing Stolas, and though some days are harder than others and I still see myself staring down a well of insecurities — I am having SO MUCH fun! Being back on tumblr feels like a much needed breath of fresh air, and the stretching of too-stiff limbs!

I would not be here without you ! Yes, you! The mutuals I see and interact with on the dash, either in quiet passing or the exchange of threads and asks! YOU make this all the more enjoyable and possible! Together, we have fun and curate our experience to be something adventurous and wonderful!

The kindness, the creativity, the skill, and talent is all immeasurable here! Each and every one of you brings so much individuality and life to your characters, whether or not they are canon or original! I am also forever grateful for the PATIENCE you all continue to have with me and my chaotic state of existence.

Anyways, before things get too sappy. . . .

Thank you for welcoming me, for having me, and if you will kindly continue to include me, I look forward to ringing in 2025 with you all!

As a reminder whether or not you are celebrating: Please stay safe, stay hydrated, and remember to enjoy yourselves! Additionally, know that you do not have to go into this new year alone.

Your Friend,

                  Jude ☆

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👑hey, 👑 it's 4 u 👑 u dropped this 👑

I just think you're all very incredible writers and people with so much creativity packed into tiny little mortal vessels that you are, in and of yourselves, continuous eternal masterpieces. Thank you, and have gr8 time!

P.S. Your portrayal, be it of a canon character or an OC, is highly cherished and necessary, even on your hardest of days or lowest activity frames. Everyone brings something unique to the table in some way, and that is remarkable!

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inbox call~! ♡ like this post & I will search your tag for something to send! 💬 reply to this post & I will send you something shippy! multi's pls specify!

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I TOLD YOU HE WAS WEARING PANTS @blitzbuckz

BUT WHERE THEY WENT IDK DON'T ASK ME

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I will offer a small ray of light;

Stolas has friends. Not canon Stolas, but my Stolas has connections, has people he laughs with, feels connected to. And that is so, so, so important. Keep that in mind, to those who have reached out with their muses and we have/had something between them. You're his tether. Even though he's stuck in this mindset of shame, guilt, self-loathing, despondence, etc.. he's not alone. He feels alone, but he's so obviously not.

And of course he's not alone with Blitz, but I'm specifically wanting to touch on the fact that, outside of canon, he has people he cares about and who.... who care about him. And that is so crucial when you are in survival mode. When he starts to break the surface, when he breathes, he's going to see and realize that.... he doesnt have to do any of this alone. And even if, physically, he does or did have to — he's at least aware of their compassion.

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Gremlin's out of the bag, it seems! ☆ If you thought I was falling for @doublejango ; you would be correct. It isn't just Stolas devoted to their Blitz, it's MEEEE. ♡

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"When the nights were at their darkest, I found you." MANY THANKS FOR A WONDERFUL TIME, AND FANTASTIC MEMORIES! - JUDE (BOTANIKOS) 2024.

Originally, I had every intention of creating an elaborate post detailing some noteworthy individuals and just how they've made my time here so incredibly wonderful. Unfortunately, that plan fell through. How? My list wound up longer than I could fathom, and I am uncertain of everyone's comfort in being directly mentioned. Besides that, the truth is, every single mutual I have has played a part in the joy I have found here. So instead, this is what I offer you.

I created this blog in the summer, I believe sometime around August. Truth be told, I wasn't supposed to be here. Months prior to making my Stolas blog, I originally created a separate one for a completely different fandom, making a return with a pair of close friends just for fun. We missed writing and had decided, fuck it, why not go back to tumblr? But when I got into Helluva Boss, I never expected this.

My initial presence was meant to be small. I fully anticipated doing round-robin writing back and forth with my two friends, and maybe a small handful of others. But my return to tumblr was meant to be a "soft opening" sort of ordeal after some terrible past experiences and years away. I returned to things being incredibly different!

Something happened, though. Somewhere along the way, actual magic was afoot, and now I am here with all of you. The vast majority of my time here has been so dazzling, I am starstruck! I have been surrounded by so many warm, compassionate, creative, talented individuals, my heart soars whenever I see you all!

Writing Stolas has been both fun and cathartic. Of course I expected to have fun, but I never expected to make so many deep and meaningful connections while here. I suppose, originally, I had intended to keep people at arm's length (we see how well that worked out). I am grateful for not doing so. Writing is an escape for me, and a wonderful hobby full of adventure and exploration!

So anyways. . . . Thank you, my friends, for having fun with me! Thank you for writing with me, for expressing your opinions and sharing your craft, for having patience, for offering kindness, and for the compliments I have (albeit reluctantly) received and accepted. You have absolutely no idea how much you mean to me, and I do not believe I can conjure the words to prove it to you. It just isn't that simple.

May you always find stars even in your darkest nights, carry hope in your heart during your longest days, and feel loved at the hardest of times.

Thank you, thank you, thank you. ♡

[botanikos]

⭐️ Paradise & Stars, or whatever you want to call it — a Vassago themed mocktail!

Ingredients:

☆ Mongo Mango juice

☆ blood orange-guava barmalade

☆ pomegranate grenadine

☆ s. pellegrino sparkling water

☆ edible gold glitter

☆ starfruit for garnish

[botanikos]

Good evening! 

While I hate to make such a large announcement and “kill the vibe” for the weekend, I really do need to set something straight. The world outside of roleplay is tumultuous and full of horrors, ailments, and struggles unique to each day. Writing is a hobby for many of us, I assume, and a reprieve from the chaos that hounds us. However, I cannot speak for anyone else; these are my words, and my feelings. 

I made this blog as a means to connect with others and write! Roleplay, to me, is what I have always enthusiastically described as collaborative storytelling. Not only that, but it is one of the easiest and most accessible and enjoyable means of relief for me. I get on my silly little blog to write and goof off. To step away from everything else around me. Sure, occasionally I let my own feelings for the day seep into my writing - but who doesn’t use their muse as a means to an end when things have been a little rough? In the end, I am here to have fun!

Like anyone else, however, I am unfortunately and fatally…human. I have feelings such as doubt, anger, frustration, anxiety, joy, compassion, etc.. There will be times where I may have the desire or need to let these feelings be known in an OOC post. It is my blog, and that is my right! That is every individual’s right; your blog should always be your safe space, and that is exactly what mine is: A safe space. That being said, I work hard to keep my blog safe not only for myself, but for my mutuals or anyone who might come across it. I tag anything and everything I should or can, when I remember to do so and as I see fit. What I will NOT engage in however, is drama, venting, or negative specific vague-posting. And I refuse to consistently let it be a constant presence any longer. 

WHAT DOES THIS MEAN? 

My blog will remain a safe space for anyone seeking comfort, reprieve, or looking for advice provided we are mutuals. You may always approach me with any questions or concerns, especially if it is in regards to my/our writing or content on my blog. I encourage any discussions to be held in privacy between us either through tumblr IM or Discord (available upon request or when I occasionally offer it on the dash). 

I will NOT unfollow anyone for the occasional vent post. OOC venting and feelings are FINE! I make those too! My blog will have a LOT of OOC postings throughout the week and even peppered between replies and activity. My DMs are ALWAYS open if you are having a particularly hard time, and need someone to talk to (albeit, I may be delayed). 

What I WILL UNFOLLOW FOR includes but is not limited to: harassment of any kind, bullying, constant negativity, constant trauma dumping, constant acknowledgement of anonymous hate-mail, constant complaints of lack of interaction (ONLY if I have knowledge that I have reached out multiple times or reason to assume others have done so too), negative or derogatory vague posting of other users. Also, please keep in mind that I have other responsibilities outside of tumblr. While I may not immediately receive your message, see it, or response to it, it does not mean it will go ignored! Though it is no one's business, I have my own chronic conditions and experience varying degrees of social burn-out. I love chatting but can become easily overwhelmed! Give me time!

IN REGARDS TO BLOCKING - I do not block anyone without reason. So far, I have only ever blocked spam or porn bots. However, if I grow uncomfortable or have reason to doubt the safety of my space, I will not hesitate to hard block. You will not be given a warning, because again, I do not do this often / at all thus far. And for me to take this sort of action, it simply means I am unwilling to communicate my discomfort and for what I believe to be, good reason. I do not immediately block people I unfollow because on most occasions, if I unfollow someone it is either A) an accident or B) just that I don't vibe or see us interacting anytime soon or in the future. This does not inherently mean this won't change! Maybe later on I have expanded my abilities or have newfound interest / new perspectives! Neat! But unfollowing does not warrant an immediate block from me. Blocking is a SOLID and DEFINITE sentence. I do not do it lightly.

Please understand that I still wish to be a positive presence and will continue to do my best to provide this! But even I have my limits, my own external struggles, and I am weary… So very, very tired. 

If you have any GENUINE questions or concerns, please do not hesitate to reach out to me! I value communication and compassion above all things, and will happily engage in a civilized conversation about anything you might find unclear. 

Thanks for reading! 

Jude

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every time I try to write up a lil post for Sinday, Stolas reminds me that he's not feeling sexy. He is, in fact, feeling sad. Like, I get it birdy boy, but uhhhhh there is only so much sad we can DO

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I want to know which one of you picked the vulgar option. . . . Don't be shy ;; but also I'm betting money it's a Blitzo. I'm assuming the kill option was chosen by either Striker or Stella — potentially both.

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I have some things to tend to, unfortunately, so I am back to lurking! I am mobile until this evening, per usual. ☆ That being said, please give this a like or some sort of reply if you would be wanting or willing to be mutuals/interact with my multi-muse. I plan to have the blog fully functional come the end of next weekend, if everything goes accordingly. Below, I'll list current/potential muses that will be present so you can decide if you'd he interested! More may join the cast in the future.

Niffty from HH

Johanna Faust from Frau Faust

Julian Devorak from The Arcana

Alucard (Adrian Fahrenheit Țepeș) from Netflix's Castlevania

Lucifer from HH (REQUEST ONLY)

Athos & Astrid Dane from A Darker Shade of Magic (REQUEST ONLY)

Aerwyn Trelle (oc)

I am open to receiving asks for any of them, but I am NOT doing any threads at this time. Anyone who likes or replies to this post will receive a follow from the blog! If you know my Discord, you'll recognize that it is me. ♡

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Hey, can I have your attention for just a moment? Yes? FANTASTIC!

Here we go then —

I want to take a moment and just. . . . Shine a light on a few things. And by a few things, I mean you all! Now, I have 1 rule about this post: You Cannot Compliment Me In The Replies. Full stop. This post is about YOU!

That being out of the way, I want to let you all know how much I appreciate each and every one of you! I have made some amazing friends since I started this blog, and it has been an incredible ride so far! Honestly, I never intended to be here but am so glad I am! Coming onto this blog makes my days a little easier, a little brighter, and especially so during the ones that feel a bit darker and harder to get through.

I want you to know something: I think your writing is INCREDIBLE! The amount of passion and depth I see everyone pouring into their muses is staggering! There is so much fun to be had reading your words and interacting with you [ and to those I am mutuals with but have limited to no interactions with yet. . . I am so sorry! Believe it or not, I am an anxious person and am actually admiring you from afar ] ! Not a day goes by where I don't gasp, laugh, or smile at something on my dashboard. The variety, the nuances — and I've met so many kind people!

There are truly no words. The ones above feel so little in comparison to the big feelings I have! I cannot begin to tell you how much I appreciate each and every one of you! Please never lose your spark, remember to have fun, and do your best not to doubt yourselves or the potential you harbor!

And thank you — thank you so much for visiting my little blog and choosing to stay with me through the chaos!

Much love from yours truly, Jude ☆

[botanikos]

rip my lover ; death by learning of the cloacal kiss. uvu

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This is me (Jude) related so I'll put it under a cut.

Like, sir, why are we asking these questions? Jumping right in, huh??? 😭😭💀

Actually need people to not be interested in me at this point like what is the appeal when we've only had like 3-6 5 min interactions a month????